A week ago, I was in Kellogg.
And right about now I was getting to my Sarahs house, slightly nervous to see my old friends. I had just stopped at the Gondolier to use the bathroom and buy a drink- brushed my hair, touched up my mascara... just in case everyone was standing outside when I got there.
I pull up, sit for just a moment. Deep breath... ok, I'm going in. My internal monologue (aka IM) was in OT:
"Ohmygosh, I cant do this. Yes you can. Oh man, what if its wierd? It wont be. What if I look silly or say something ridiculous? You dont, and of course you will. hahaha" (Its ok, I can laugh at myself)
So, here I am- worried. But I get to the gate and here comes Alex. My long lost albino snow monkey best gay guy friend from high school. Yay! A hello, a big hug and all previous thoughts are out the window. We go in and everything is JUST like it used to be. Just relaxed and happy. (IM- see, told you it would be fine. Shush).
We hang out for a bit. I cant help myself and tell the most ridiculous of jokes (hee hee) and then we take off for up town. We took the short cut and went right up to Dirty Ernies. Right off the bat, we had to hit the bar. What?! A double vodka cran just makes these socail events easier! (IM- alki. You shush- I dont do this often.)
So some people, did some visiting... Sarah had to leave... Alex and I stayed and talked. And talked, and talked and talked. I cannot remember the last time I talked with someone like that. And you know what was awesome? No judgement. I told him my deepest darkest secrets, and he didnt bat an eye. All week long, Ive been remember this and that thinking "Oh god, did I REALLY say that outloud?!" Turns out, I did.
If I had shared all that with someone I know and see all the time, I'd be so worried. By now, I would have spent many hours going over my conversations thinking "Do I need to call them and apologize for my honesty? Did I say too much and embarrass myself?" But, with old friends (even ones I dont see often), I feel like I dont have to worry. They have seen me in a marching band uniform for Petes sake. How much worse could it be?
Last weekend was so great. This weekend has been busy so far. Babysat little BBQ last night, lots of baby cuddles to make my heart melt. Today was Jam Fest, at work, so I mostly visited my afternooon away and got to listen to some good music. Tomorrow, lunch with friends. And then, the CHAOS BEGINS.
Hailee is coming over for Lady Gaga... my inlaws (including Chips Gramma) are coming over the same weekend for a game and Ikes birthday... Seattle sight seeing... back to Kellogg for wedding stuff... a trip to Lewiston to see more family... back to Kellogg for more wedding stuff.. wedding.. party... back home. Work, work, work... labor day weekend... get ready for school... school...Brad Paisley... and then? Breathe!
My new addiction is the blue can of zero carb Rockstar. Sound like I'm gonna need to mainline it in the near future.
Goodnight!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
I have a dream (board)
So, on my long-quick trip back home last weekend, I spent quite a bit of time either rocking my "right now" ipod mix or listening to Cosmo Radio on Sirius. Im quite fond of "Cocks with P" and also "Get in Bed". Haha, it makes me feel naughty to say those things out loud. But, they are both really good shows.
Anyway... one of them were talking about "vision boards" or "dream boards" and all about putting what you want out to the universe to help it come to realization. You know, you think positively on the things you want out of life and your own positive energy gives strength to the things that will propel you closer to your dreams. Law of attraction, I guess. Apparently, there is a whole book (The Secret) that I need to read.
So- I'm going to do a board. I dont know if you are supposed to share your hearts desire with the world via social media... but here I go. The following items will be represented in word and image on my board (in no particular order of importance):
I am happy in my marriage
I can play the guitar
I have finished school
I am healthy and happy with my body
My house is orderly and pretty
I am a good mom
I have a good relationship with my sisters
I am a good friend
With exception to my body, I am not unhappy with my life. I am a moderately good wife,mom, friend, sister... but I just feel like I'd like to be better. Finishing school has been on my "to do" list for as long as I can remember and I just want to learn the guitar for fun.
So- here it is.
Hey Universe..! Bring it on!!
Anyway... one of them were talking about "vision boards" or "dream boards" and all about putting what you want out to the universe to help it come to realization. You know, you think positively on the things you want out of life and your own positive energy gives strength to the things that will propel you closer to your dreams. Law of attraction, I guess. Apparently, there is a whole book (The Secret) that I need to read.
So- I'm going to do a board. I dont know if you are supposed to share your hearts desire with the world via social media... but here I go. The following items will be represented in word and image on my board (in no particular order of importance):
I am happy in my marriage
I can play the guitar
I have finished school
I am healthy and happy with my body
My house is orderly and pretty
I am a good mom
I have a good relationship with my sisters
I am a good friend
With exception to my body, I am not unhappy with my life. I am a moderately good wife,mom, friend, sister... but I just feel like I'd like to be better. Finishing school has been on my "to do" list for as long as I can remember and I just want to learn the guitar for fun.
So- here it is.
Hey Universe..! Bring it on!!
Monday, August 9, 2010
Recap? Noo... Twitcap
I found myself missing Twitter over the weekend. So, I saved it all up in my head and half twitted myself to death this afternoon.
The Land of Jen Presents-
All Class/ Gary Bear Wedding Weekend in Re-cap
Friday:
3:45 Off I go, cant wait to get home, gonna be an epic weekend! Woot!
4:30 OK, really- off I go, gas etc... Finally hitting the road
530- Oh goody, road construction AND motor home caravans, my lucky day
730-ish, Moses lake. Nice "queen beyotch" license plate holder on your 3 wheeler lady.
9:57 Holy crap, how about a litle warning when the speed limit changes from 45 to 75 and the road changes to only 12 FEET WIDE!
9:57 Hello Gaurdrail! That was a close call! But, I see the lights of town... 10:00. Hmmm- Can I remember which house is Sarahs? Well, yes!
11:00 going to Eddie Joes for the class of 94 meet up
11:05 Ok, Im gonna need at least 1 tall glass of social lubrication to not feel like a grown up band geek.
11:30 Just acosted with a violent hug by a "long lost friend" who I will not name via twitter but who was not really my friend or long lost.
11:50 Ho hum, this is dumb. Enough social awkwardness for one night, heading home.
12:15 trying to make friends with Tank, my pitbull-mastif mix DOG NEPHEW, so that he wont kill me when I come home tomorrow night.
SATURDAY
2:30 AM- my night now tendencies clearly come from my father
915 AM. I have a phone call? I dont even live here anymore! My parents number has been the same for 35 years- makes it easy to find me. ;)
1PM- lil sis straightened my hair. Off to Bonners.
330ish- made it to moms room. Cleeeear at the end of the hall. Hot as hell in here!
330ish- Holy crap! I had a dream that took place in this room! THIS room! THIS patio! THIS view. How wierd is that?
530ish- Standing room only. Proud Gary Bear standing up front. love the last minute facebook jokes. Now it begins
530ish- Aw, so beautiful. Love the "aye" from her dad. And apparently, Adams rib was the beginning of Friday night prime rib specials all over the world.
630ish- hanging out with the fam. thinking about buying the cheap cigs and throwing some cash into the slot machine
7:15- I lost
730= got me some Zips and a huckleberry shake. Headed home. :) Again. :)
10PM- Pull into the Gondolier, used to go there with a friend all the time. Gondolier burgers were bomb.
10:30- You know whats AWESOME? Hanging with old friends. So many years gone by but still so comfortable. So happy right now.
11ish- Heading to Dirty Ernies
1130 Oh man. Gotta love the valley "hey beautiful, where you from?". Um, here.
12:00- Dancing, laughing, singing... Hey look its......! :)
SUNDAY
1230 AM- still dancing, laughing, singing. Making "friends" in the bathroom line.
12:32 HAHAHAHA- the walls are covered with naked men. Havent seen that many dongs since.....__________ well, never. LOL.
1:30- whats up with last call anyways?
2:00 chatting it up with Alex. They took our table!A shared trip to the porta potty- Gott a love a guy who will go with you to pee
230 AM- at the park. My cousin walks by "what are you doing?" (catching up). Her friend: "Dont wanna 'catch up' in the bushes like everyone else?
230- LOL. There will be no "catching up" with Alex.
240- Are you thinking what Im thinking? Probably! Runs off to the swing and slides at the playground, giggling like a maniac.
300 AM- Spotlighted by the local authorities- been a while since thats happened, haha.
330- hanging out in my car, catching up. HAHAHA- just joking. We were warming up before heading home. Bye Alex, love you!
4AM- pulling into the drive. Tanky!? Tanky!? Its your auntie Jennnn! Ive got a cookie for you!
4:05AM Oh thank GOD- he remembered me. All arms and fingers are still intact. Gigantic dog hopping around the living room.
415- sleepy. Maybe I'll take my contac...
7:15- Holy Shi*t- my eyes are glued shut! Drops, advil, pepsi... good to go back to bed.
930AM- Sweet Jesus what is that bright light?! Oh- the sun? Riiiiiight.
1145AM- up and moving , gotta get going. :( Man, I hate leaving this place. I really, really hate it. Why cant Seattle be in Spokane?
12:30 off I go
630 PM- Ah, my babies and my hubby. I hate leaving "back home" but man, I love being "home, home".
And this concludes the Land of Jen twitcap. Your regular programming will now resume.
:)
The Land of Jen Presents-
All Class/ Gary Bear Wedding Weekend in Re-cap
Friday:
3:45 Off I go, cant wait to get home, gonna be an epic weekend! Woot!
4:30 OK, really- off I go, gas etc... Finally hitting the road
530- Oh goody, road construction AND motor home caravans, my lucky day
730-ish, Moses lake. Nice "queen beyotch" license plate holder on your 3 wheeler lady.
9:57 Holy crap, how about a litle warning when the speed limit changes from 45 to 75 and the road changes to only 12 FEET WIDE!
9:57 Hello Gaurdrail! That was a close call! But, I see the lights of town... 10:00. Hmmm- Can I remember which house is Sarahs? Well, yes!
11:00 going to Eddie Joes for the class of 94 meet up
11:05 Ok, Im gonna need at least 1 tall glass of social lubrication to not feel like a grown up band geek.
11:30 Just acosted with a violent hug by a "long lost friend" who I will not name via twitter but who was not really my friend or long lost.
11:50 Ho hum, this is dumb. Enough social awkwardness for one night, heading home.
12:15 trying to make friends with Tank, my pitbull-mastif mix DOG NEPHEW, so that he wont kill me when I come home tomorrow night.
SATURDAY
2:30 AM- my night now tendencies clearly come from my father
915 AM. I have a phone call? I dont even live here anymore! My parents number has been the same for 35 years- makes it easy to find me. ;)
1PM- lil sis straightened my hair. Off to Bonners.
330ish- made it to moms room. Cleeeear at the end of the hall. Hot as hell in here!
330ish- Holy crap! I had a dream that took place in this room! THIS room! THIS patio! THIS view. How wierd is that?
530ish- Standing room only. Proud Gary Bear standing up front. love the last minute facebook jokes. Now it begins
530ish- Aw, so beautiful. Love the "aye" from her dad. And apparently, Adams rib was the beginning of Friday night prime rib specials all over the world.
630ish- hanging out with the fam. thinking about buying the cheap cigs and throwing some cash into the slot machine
7:15- I lost
730= got me some Zips and a huckleberry shake. Headed home. :) Again. :)
10PM- Pull into the Gondolier, used to go there with a friend all the time. Gondolier burgers were bomb.
10:30- You know whats AWESOME? Hanging with old friends. So many years gone by but still so comfortable. So happy right now.
11ish- Heading to Dirty Ernies
1130 Oh man. Gotta love the valley "hey beautiful, where you from?". Um, here.
12:00- Dancing, laughing, singing... Hey look its......! :)
SUNDAY
1230 AM- still dancing, laughing, singing. Making "friends" in the bathroom line.
12:32 HAHAHAHA- the walls are covered with naked men. Havent seen that many dongs since.....__________ well, never. LOL.
1:30- whats up with last call anyways?
2:00 chatting it up with Alex. They took our table!A shared trip to the porta potty- Gott a love a guy who will go with you to pee
230 AM- at the park. My cousin walks by "what are you doing?" (catching up). Her friend: "Dont wanna 'catch up' in the bushes like everyone else?
230- LOL. There will be no "catching up" with Alex.
240- Are you thinking what Im thinking? Probably! Runs off to the swing and slides at the playground, giggling like a maniac.
300 AM- Spotlighted by the local authorities- been a while since thats happened, haha.
330- hanging out in my car, catching up. HAHAHA- just joking. We were warming up before heading home. Bye Alex, love you!
4AM- pulling into the drive. Tanky!? Tanky!? Its your auntie Jennnn! Ive got a cookie for you!
4:05AM Oh thank GOD- he remembered me. All arms and fingers are still intact. Gigantic dog hopping around the living room.
415- sleepy. Maybe I'll take my contac...
7:15- Holy Shi*t- my eyes are glued shut! Drops, advil, pepsi... good to go back to bed.
930AM- Sweet Jesus what is that bright light?! Oh- the sun? Riiiiiight.
1145AM- up and moving , gotta get going. :( Man, I hate leaving this place. I really, really hate it. Why cant Seattle be in Spokane?
12:30 off I go
630 PM- Ah, my babies and my hubby. I hate leaving "back home" but man, I love being "home, home".
And this concludes the Land of Jen twitcap. Your regular programming will now resume.
:)
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